self or others

at this very moment i have a call on hold, king2x is on the next line asking me if im going out tonight. you see for me, going out is not like what some people might think it is. not out of the closet but actually what it means literally. i was not born to decline an invitation for a good friday night out. it has always been a struggle for me to stay home on weekends. one reason is i hate the tone of the voice on the other line when i actually make excuses on not being able to join them on their weekly alcohol binging. "others" that's the word most often than not, come out of their mouths. is it so hard to understand that not all people can afford to go out on a night before work? or do they actually think everyone would bend when an invitation has alcohol written all over it?

then i answered the call, king2x was only up for a chat. we did it over the phone.


sorry i had to rant. un lang pala.