the excape

been out most of the night. either at work or out with people i dont usually go out with. its like college, im exploring butuan all over again. the people, the custom, the locals and the expats. and somehow, its working for me. at work things are just the same but the serenity is new. no code blues, nothing toxic. but outside work, things are different. the faces are the same except for the expat who calls himself butuanon. the perspective are different, they are here but they are there (get it?). they talk different, they act different, or is it just me? am i now trying to see the light under the gloomy sky? am i now realizing that yes, i do belong here? home is home and not home is not home? everything is still all fucked up and shitty but the attitude towards the fucked up and the shitty had went upside down. im getting used to it. is it a good or bad thing? who can tell?

para lang sa mahal ko

A cup of coffee half way through your working hours.
High cholesterol high protein and high carbohydrate diet served in big platter.
Your favorite flavor of booze on a long friday night.
A month long vacation to catch up on your reading.
A weekend getaway with your Big friends.
Your dream toyota hybrid.
A penthouse over looking the circle.
Your own track in a busy street for your evening run.
A sanmig light with your sigsig.
A punching bag.
A vienna teng gig ticket.
Your own sauna cubicle at ff.
Your own spot at any cbtl branch.
Your own couch at powerbooks.
A betty to answer your sms for you.
Ultra thin and light macbook pro.
A dinner with neil gaiman.
A jolie birth cert.
A portman bride.
A pascual sex slave.


Most of all

peace of mind.

nun mga panahong di mahirap ngumiti

ngiti pa. ngiti.



nun inakala namin na masarap ang thai foods.



barko ang tawag sa lugar kung nasaan kami.

sila at ako

ayun, kala mo kung saang malaking mall kung mag-gala. gaisano lang pala.

promil kids

all of us are nurses now. see how our faces glow despite all the pressures.

minsan nauubos ang oras natin sa mga kabalbalan

1. Ang tunay na lalake ay di natutulog.
2. Ang tunay na lalake ay di nagte-text-back, maliban na lang kung papasahan ng load. Gayunpaman, laging malabo ang kanyang mga sagot.
3. Ang tunay na lalake ay laging may extra rice.
4. Ang tunay na lalake ay hindi vegetarian.
5. Ang tunay na lalake ay walang abs.
6. Ang tunay na lalake ay hindi sumasayaw.
7. Ang tunay na lalake ay umaamin ng pagkakamali sa kapwa tunay na lalake.
8. Ang tunay na lalake ay laging may tae sa brief.
9. Ang tunay na lalake ay di naghuhugas ng pinagkainan o nagliligpit ng kanyang mga gamit dahil may babaeng gagawa noon para sa kanya. Mas lalong nagiging tunay ang pagkalalake kung di niya kilala o di niya maalala ang pangalan ng babae.
10. Ang tunay na lalake ay di nagsisimba.

Tunay Ka Bang Lalake?

if things arent clear, if you need closure

dont hesitate to call my publicist, its jonifer at eventology 8600.

and then there was your sunny smile

Time will bring the real end of our trial
One day there'll be no remnants no trace
No residual feelings within ya
One day you won't remember me.

Your face will be the reason I smile
But I will not see what I cannot have forever
I'll always love ya

If I can't have you
Let love set you free
To fly your pretty wings around.

Pretty wings, your pretty wings, your
Pretty wings. Pretty wings around.

and then there was pieces of april

trash but familiar

my little skinhead coelho

you are up there. you choose to defy a lot of things. I thank you for indirectly sharing your thoughts.

but there are songs and youtube clips

Calm down
Deep breaths
And get yourself dressed instead
Of running around
And pulling all your threads and
Breaking yourself up

If it's a broken part, replace it
If it’s a broken arm then brace it
If it's a broken heart then face it

And hold your own
Know your name
And go your own way
Hold your own
Know your name
And go your own way

And everything will be fine

Hang on
Help is on the way
Stay strong
I'm doing everything

Hold your own
Know your name
And go your own way
Hold your own
Know your name
And go your own way

And everything
Everything will be fine
Everything

Are the details in the fabric
Are the things that make you panic
Are your thoughts results of static cling?

Are the things that make you blow
Hell, no reason, go on and scream
If you're shocked it's just the fault
Of faulty manufacturing.

Everything will be fine
Everything in no time at all
Everything

Hold your own
And know your name
Go your own way

Are the details in the fabric (Hold your own)
Are the things that make you panic (Know your name)
Are your thoughts results of static cling? (Go your own way)

Hold your own
Know your name
Go your own way.

Are the details in the fabric (Hold your own)
Are the things that make you panic (Know your name)
Is it Mother Nature's sewing machine? (Go your own way)
Are the things that make you blow (Hold your own)
Hell no reason go on and scream (Know your name)
If you’re shocked it's just the fault (Go your own way)
Of faulty manufacturing

Everything will be fine
Everything in no time at all
Hearts will hold