to sunshine from stranger ii

Engr

Your response is more than what i expected. When i read your sms early today I could not help but smile. The irony of avoiding to be distracted from work with thoughts of what might and might not happen with what we have right now came minutes before I swiped in for work. Good thing i was busy. An amateur would have done a better job than what I did today. With the way i treat you in our text conversation, I now wonder if you took any of those seriously. I have always been open with what I feel for you. I can never blame you for not taking any of those things seriously since you have different views on how people like us deal with intimacy. Maybe i was wrong with my assumptions that you are self sufficient. Maybe our ideals don't meet. What i meant with the relationship-commitment line is that I want to feel warmth from you even if there is no "us". I did not blame you for being a person who is hard to love. It was me on the first place who placed this weight on my shoulder. I should have known better and not use the line. To say the you are the last person who deserve any love in this world is a big joke. Because the last time i checked you are first on my list (not like i actually have a list). I don't know why it didn't occur to me that the distance should be an issue. Maybe i was thinking way ahead (six months far) that i didn't mind what would happen in between. I should take your word that the "us" i had been wanting to have don't have any foundation to weather storms to sustain a LDR. You may not even have enough memory of me to bind me to you as a friend. But on my end, as what i have expressed on my previous letter, things are a tad different. On my end love and lust don't have interchangeable meanings. I am relieved that you didn't ask me to give up but the situation didn't really change. I am bothered why i cannot seem to keep one thing i said to you a couple of times already. That I am willing to do things your way. Maybe because I have always had an inclination to be dominant. I will not make an excuse on this. But ill do my best to stick with it. And at a pace you are comfortable with.

welcome,
nurse

COFFEE BEAN GB

going back to the corner,
where i first saw you
gonna camp in my sleeping bag,
I'm not gonna move
got some words on cardboard
got your picture in my head
saying: if you see this girl can you tell her were i am
some try to hand me money
they don't understand
I'm not broke I'm just a broken hearted man
i no it makes no sense
what else can i do
and how can i move on
when I'm still in love with you

cos if one day you wake up
and find that your missing me
and your heart starts to wonder
were on this earth i could be
thinking maybe you'd come back here
to the place that we'd meet
and you'd see me waiting for you
on the corner of the street
so I'm not moving
I'm not moving

police man says son you cant stay here
i say someone I'm waiting for if its a day a month or year
got to stand my ground
even if it rains or snows
if she changes her mind
this is the first place she will go

cos if one day you wake up
and find that your missing me
and your heart starts to wonder
were on this earth i could be
thinking maybe you'd come back here
to the place that we'd meet
and you'd see me waiting for you
on the corner of the street
so I'm not moving
I'm not moving
I'm not moving

people talk about the guy
thats waiting in on a girl
woooaa wooo
There are no holes in his shoes,
but a big hole in his heart
ooooo
maybe ill get famous for the man who cant be moved
and maybe you wont mean to but you'll see me on the news
and you'd come running to the corner
cos you'll know its just for you
I'm the man who cant be moved
I'm the man who cant be moved

cos if one day you wake up
and find that your missing me
and your heart starts to wonder
were on this earth i could be
thinking maybe you'd come back here
to the place that we'd meet
and you'd see me waiting for you
on the corner of the street
so I'm not moving
I'm not moving
I'm not moving
I'm not moving

going back to the corner were i first saw you
gonna camp in my sleeping bag and I'm not gonna move