Tuesday, December 30, 2008
Sunday, December 28, 2008
apples chopped bitesize
5 peso lighter with a missing head
old furniture shop
chops of wood
(would have been a perfect indie flick scene if not for marco's concern about my pending plans for manila. you can work more on the emotions marc, i know you too well bastard.)
Friday, December 12, 2008
adrian: kayo na ni dan?]
rayn_am: bat mo naman naisip yan?
adrian: kasi sabi mo youre gud. tapos youre great
rayn_am: dan got my present last monday
adrian: ah ok. how was it?
rayn_am: you be the judge
rayn_am: email add mo ulit?
adrian: ganong kalaki ba yung pic/frame?
adrian: i mean gaanong kalaki yun?
rayn_am: can you send a reply so that i can get the entry back on my inbox?
rayn_am: so so what do you think?
adrian: i dont know. mahirap pa rin basahin si dan
rayn_am: kaya nga
adrian: kasi walang indication about how he feels about you. yes, he said "smiling" sya. pero did not say, i like u etc. dba. parang si sheldon
adrian: hehehe. diba. parang hindi sya nageexpress about how he feels for u. puro thank u
adrian: ganun din si sheldon sakin. pruo thank u
adrian: puro thank u
rayn_am: puro thank you
adrian: nako baka na-cancel-out ko yung greatness mo ngayon. sabi mo pa naman youre great
rayn_am: mao na mahadlok ko makig-storya sa imo about this
rayn_am: your points of view hit hard
rayn_am: i was about to sail again
rayn_am: then you fuckin anchor me back sa pantalan
adrian: haay. sorry. ganyan din kasi nangyari sakin. im just saying things from experience. be careful. hehehe
rayn_am: no need to apologize
rayn_am: salamat nga eh
adrian: pano yan? ano plan mo? have u asked him (again) if he likes u?
rayn_am: tuloy na plans ko, submit na ako resignation early next year.
rayn_am: i dont want to ask.
Thursday, December 11, 2008
I woke up late today. Yehey! Haha. It was around lunch time when I finally became conscious of the world. Last night, I already had an itinerary of what I would be doing today, which was mostly to settle my bills. After withdrawing, reviewing, and computing everything, I went to sleep already with a frightful of bills rushing at me in my dreams.
When I got down today to do my errands, there was a piece of paper in my unit box, which made me frown and think: Oh no, another bill has arrived again. Since my bills these days come anytime they feel like to arrive, I asked the guard for the piece of paper. I might as well settle it now, I thought to myself.
Ay, ser. May kasama po 'tong papel.
Blink. Blink. I looked at the guard.
Then he pointed at a package, sa inyo po yan, he said.
Huh? Ang laki! I said to myself. Sige, balikan ko na lang, I told the guard.
After running around and throwing money wherever, I went back to my place and got the package. Ohmaygad, what is this? I asked myself. This is too big for a greeting/christmas/birthday card. And with Fragile stickers all over it, it sure did pique my curiousity.
This was what greeted me after fighting my way with the masking tape:
Wow. Natalie Portman. Closer. (Drooling starts here.)
When I was about to hang it on the wall, I noticed something at the back. I was even more surprised with what I found there.
Wow. I've always been silent in my life, but if there ever was a moment that I was speechless and dumbfounded, this was it.
It was like the opening scene from the movie Closer. I felt like I was hit by something. And then you're there. Thank you. I'm smiling. And I can't stop it. :)"
Monday, December 8, 2008
but you feel so old
its just the things you been through
that are making you cold
i think your going to turn soon
i gotta be careful with my moves
just might loose you for good
listen i cant fight your demons
cause id have to fight you
cause there so far inside you
and i just cant seem to get through
it aint none of my business
it aint none of my place
yah but i still had to try
la la la la la la la la la la
Saturday, December 6, 2008
nurse: I love u? send to all?
engr: malay ko ba. haha
nurse: Ur unbelievable.
engr: ha ha. op kors.
nurse: maybe thats the reason why.
engr: reason why na ano?
nurse: You know what i mean. I cant humor you with a reason why i love u. In fact, i cant even humor u with anything at all.
engr: hala.ang drama.
nurse: Cant do it any other way.
adrian: kawawa naman. kawawa naman si ryan.
nurse: its a choice to be in this situation. its a choice that im in love with him. hindi ako kawawa. if i chose to. i can get out of this. itll take awhile. itll take some effort, a lot of effort i mean. bit if theres will, i can. but i decided not to because at some point, i am happy.
Friday, December 5, 2008
Thursday, December 4, 2008
today is my third day of bummin around. i had a lot of things in mind: things to do, people to see. but theres this one thing ive been wanting to do. to actualize the early christmas/bday gift for engr. the idea started one lazy night while i was trying to organize my limited dvd collections (tv series here, films there, porns underthebed). i dont know why whenever i see any julia roberts cd im always tempted to feed it on the player and play-away. Closer (julia r and natalie p) yeah yeah. who am i kidding? maybe the urge to play it is really because i wanted to check natalie p out. she's competition. engr is, i think, determined to marry her. the film was good. i remember watchin it first time with marco, if my memory didnt fail me marco had a lot of things to say about it and as what i usually do, i nodded and agreed. the one scene where natalie is gawkin at her own sad image gave me the idea of what to give engr as a present. the movie ended. it felt like theres this lump on my chest i cannot shake off. but i just slept on it.
monday, i went to a friends shop and told him about the idea and if he could help. of course he said yes, he's going to give me a discount (was hoping it will be free). two days after i got hold of the present and i was pleased (oops, blasphemy). i brought it to work and left it there, thought there will be less meaning to the present if i give it weeks early. but knowing me, too excited to make someone feel special, i blabbed about the present to engr. i was hoping he'd also get excited but after a few lines after i mentioned the present, i lost him online, i just stared at his online icon fighting the urge to open up another topic. so there, he knows about the present, i might as well send it already.
thursday, i went to a couple of courier outlets here. theres JRS who turned me down because, they cant ship anything fragile. LBC would take the package granting i would have to get the thing crated. yeah, theres the universe again conspiring against me. downhearted, i sent a message to a friend "san ka na? i need help". she agreed to meet me and as i wait for her and binge on what tree garden has to offer i seriously thought of keepin the present and give it to him personally if i still have a chance. but again, theres no such things as the universe conspiring against ryan... may bukas pa...