Sunday, July 19, 2009

the excape

been out most of the night. either at work or out with people i dont usually go out with. its like college, im exploring butuan all over again. the people, the custom, the locals and the expats. and somehow, its working for me. at work things are just the same but the serenity is new. no code blues, nothing toxic. but outside work, things are different. the faces are the same except for the expat who calls himself butuanon. the perspective are different, they are here but they are there (get it?). they talk different, they act different, or is it just me? am i now trying to see the light under the gloomy sky? am i now realizing that yes, i do belong here? home is home and not home is not home? everything is still all fucked up and shitty but the attitude towards the fucked up and the shitty had went upside down. im getting used to it. is it a good or bad thing? who can tell?

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