im always breaking. just when one aspect of my life is mended another one breaks. its 12:46 am, first day of febuary and im running a fever. fourth day of fever, normally i would have pop pills and nurse my way through dvd's, juices, fruits and a bunch of non palatable foods but this fever is too stubborn. before this i was worrying about another thing, my finances. i managed to max out my credit card last month and surprise, my current savings couldn't keep up. was online all the time trying to get family to send me money and supportive as they are, they did. before the financial trouble it was my heart that's breaking, no need to elaborate on that.
they say its human to make mistakes, to fail to estimate. but why does it have to be a cycle? cant anyone just live maybe a day, week or a month and not worry of things going out of hand? oh yeah this things will hone us, this things will teach us, they'll make us a better person but why didn't anyone even asked us if we wanted to be hone, taught or become a better person? sometimes i think that in our lives we never get to have a say on what happens, we're just here wandering around and waiting for the next ball to hit us. it gets tiring. i want plateau. i want boring.
so how have i been?
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